{"id":776,"date":"2026-06-10T02:19:28","date_gmt":"2026-06-10T09:19:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ryk.groetchen.com\/blog\/2026\/06\/10\/adulting-and-its-opposite\/"},"modified":"2026-06-10T02:19:28","modified_gmt":"2026-06-10T09:19:28","slug":"adulting-and-its-opposite","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ryk.groetchen.com\/blog\/2026\/06\/10\/adulting-and-its-opposite\/","title":{"rendered":"adulting and its opposite"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

here’s the thing that’s so hard to reconcile as i move into the last third of my life:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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as much as i appear to my peers to overshare about my inner life, i feel like a tentative teenager when i consider the world i thought i would find myself in as an adult human,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

growing up as i did on the expressive output of people whose writing i resonated with:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

walt whitman, a.a. milne, gertrude stein, e.e. cummings, countee cullen, langston hughes, henry miller, ana\u00efs nin, julio cort\u00e1zar, charles bukowski, james baldwin, jack kerouac, allen ginsberg, frank o\u2019hara, kenzabur\u014d \u014de, anne sexton, sylvia plath, audre lorde, angela davis, maya angelou, david bowie, jim harrison, erica jong, jim carroll, eve babitz, kate bush, prince, kathy acker, dorothy allison.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

the world was supposed to be more gay, more unmasked, more nuanced, more accepting of complexity, more nonbinary. we were supposed to have seen through the inhuman demands of industrial capitalism. we were supposed to find ourselves on the other side of the world we had inherited. we were supposed to have embraced obvious but nontraditional solutions. we were supposed to have found family in people willing to be authentically themselves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

we were supposed to not get mad when someone disrupted the narrative. we were supposed to welcome disruption of the narrative.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

instead, we find ourselves beholden to the productivity cult, to getting-things-done, to apologizing for oversharing, to wondering how to monetize our downtime and create passive income, to figuring out how to remain relevant. to deciding how many dead children are a fair trade. to fitting our expressions into a platform, our visibility decided by an algorithm. to sidelining the skills we invested skin in when we were young. to surviving in this economy, in the richest country the world has ever known. to choosing whether it’s worth the effort to just be authentic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

what. the. fuck. happened?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

and why is what i am doing considered oversharing, when i feel like i’m late to the game, and barely scratching the surface, just saying the things i think are supposed to be obvious?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

do you feel me? am i an old mf, shouting at a cloud?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

help me here.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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